tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75618451621554621842024-03-13T01:43:08.598-05:00From a Heart That's PoundingPhamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.comBlogger153125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-77336894383013078252012-03-07T14:46:00.001-06:002012-03-07T14:46:38.178-06:00thebabyelephant.tumblr.com<br />
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for updates on Isabelle and IPhamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-79542488064992283942011-11-21T12:49:00.002-06:002011-11-21T12:50:18.092-06:00If you saw the world thru God's eyes...you would see past the shame.<br />
you would see past the pain.<br />
you would see past the anger.<br />
you would see past the hatred.<br />
and all you would see instead is love.<br />
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Those divine moments in life, where you feel such intense peace and clarity. Moments where the world finally all made sense to you, regardless of the pain and suffering that exist within it. Moments so rare in nature, yet so pure and memorable, it changes the way you view the world in its entirety forever.<br />
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The realization that evil and good must co-exist. A battle so necessary, a balance so crucial, it makes the world go round. However, what you ultimately decide to feel in your heart is yours to choose. And you may not always feel compassion and love at first, you may feel pain, shame, and hate. Yet that journey you take, the one that teaches you patience..the one that teaches you to love...the one that teaches you to understand, that journey will leave you as a person you have never imagined yourself capable.<br />
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Never regret meeting anyone because every person that enters your life will somehow leave a mark no matter how large or small. Everyone you meet plays a role in shaping you so appreciate their very existence.<br />
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There are very few people who can view you objectively, many whom will view you subjectively. For the most part, people will choose to see good things in you. Once in a while, you'll bump into a few people that will see the opposite. There's nothing you can do because their eyes are their own and what they choose to see is their choice. It can be frustrating when you feel like you've done no wrong and you've tried so hard to get them to see otherwise, but accept it and move on. There are plenty others out there that will adore you as you are.<br />
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Many will enter your life, some will truly love you, if only temporary. Enjoy it while you can, be thankful when it's gone. Hostility and bitterness won't bring them back. The love you should focus on is the love given by family. Though sometimes shaky and rocky, they always stand the testament of tribulations and time. The only non-blood related person that may earn that kind of love in your lifetime is your spouse. Therefore, choose wisely. <br />
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Time oddly reveals everything. The delusion you've created in your mind to protect yourself or others. In time, it will vanish and reality becomes clear. You can try to lie to yourself and make yourself love someone. You can try to lie and tell yourself you don't. True feelings can only hide for so long. Be honest with yourself and hopefully no one gets hurt. Sometimes that's just unavoidable...<br />
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Before you throw the blame on others, you must first assess yourself. More common than not, you will find that you were equally as wrong. Both parties usually play a part, own up to it. Either mend the problem or accept it and move on. <br />
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When we talk of our own accomplishments, let's not belittle how others choose to live. Their life is their own, let their journey be filled with their own stories of struggle and defeat. You do you, hold your head high, and be proud. No need to step on others along the way.Your success is great for you, good job, you deserve a gold star. But talking about other people's lack of success doesn't make you any more successful.<br />
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The people that talk big are the people that don't know shit. I often find that the people worth listening to are really humble because they themselves believe they have a lot to learn. So if you feel as if someone is forcing 'knowledge' through your ears....RUN. <br />
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Overall, focus on yourself more than others. Focus on improving <i>your</i> life...don't worry about others. Let other people do whatever the hell they want to do. Bon Qui Qui from 5 blocks down the street who just got knocked up does not concern you. Solomon Roe who just failed English 2000 does not concern you. Your next door neighbor who just bought a new car does not concern you. Victoria Sanchez who got a boob job does not concern you. People's news are theirs to tell, so keep their names out of your mouth. You just do you...<br />
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I hope this has help.. just a few things I've learned and I've got so much more to learn...<br />
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Also a video that will explain why you need to get rid of shitty people in your life... NOW. <br />
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Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-3135696283323115152011-07-12T18:27:00.000-05:002011-07-12T18:27:05.447-05:00Distant MemoryAh yes...it's been quite a while since I've posted anything. And to be utterly honest, the posts will soon cease in existence. This blog was created about a year ago. From breakups to hookups and everything in between, I have recorded all of my memories here. All of my feelings, thoughts, experiences, poured into typographic font on the screen for the world to see. These memories, so cherished and valued at the time, somehow became a part of a distant past...all these memories soon transpired into a distant memory. Memories holding on for dear life that will soon disappear with the hands of time. Memories that will soon be forgotten.<br />
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Every new day makes us a new person.<br />
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The last year has been very special, extraordinary, and, ultimately, over.<br />
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Today a new chapter of my life begins. I have moved on and those memories and all whom were in it will soon vanish. <br />
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I've been keeping my distance from all the negativity and it's given me much peace but realistically there are times the negativity seems inescapable.<br />
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It's easy to love sweet, caring, loving people, which was why I always promoted the idea that one should surround themselves with people as such. However, the ultimate test for that beating heart of mine (and yours) is encountering the people in life that aren't as pleasant.<br />
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I admit, I feel much hatred in my heart but this is a challenge I'm willing to accept. I hope this experience will teach me the art of forgiveness and to love all, even those who deserve it the least. <br />
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I hope you will also take the time in your life to grow love instead of hate. Please take the journey with me, I don't want to take it alone. If there is room for anger and hate, surely we can make room for love and peace. <br />
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After some reflection, I realized how patient and tolerant I became after dealing with these types of people for months. On my good days, I am able to treat them with courtesy without expecting anything in return. Not to say I don't have my bad days where I ignore them all together. Overtime, I have found it easier to treat them well regardless of their actions.<br />
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Wish me luck! I've come too far to regress or crack! Got to move forward...always moving forward...must keep going!!Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-81052536604871346692011-06-04T13:11:00.000-05:002011-06-04T13:11:09.084-05:00Stuck Like Glue<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/5iDPw_qjhtM" width="560"></iframe><br />
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<i><b>"Stuck on you...you and me baby...we're stuck like glue." </b></i><br />
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Dropped off some food to the old man while he was at work today and as we were saying our farewells, he gave my hand a sweet little peck. There is just something so wholesome and innocent about a kiss on the hand. You can imagine I was smiling from the inside out. I am obsessed with him! Absolutely amazed by this love-a love so unfathomable, completely indescribable, and totally un-understandable.<br />
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I feel like jumping obnoxiously on a trampoline so I reach to the sky and give God a hug! A hug so grand to thank him for blessing me with this wonderful life.<br />
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Hope everyone out there is having a blessed day! Go tan in the sun, skip around in your underwear, eat some frozen yogurt, whatever your heart desires!!!Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-79457833405258269732011-05-24T15:59:00.001-05:002011-05-24T16:00:04.550-05:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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Today I had a meeting with Dr. Eubanks (one of the head guys for the admission committee at LSUHSC). For some reason I thought I met him before so I was expecting a familiar face, but no.. out walks this short sweet looking man calling my name and I didn't know what to say.<br />
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"Nice to see you again Huong."<br />
Be prepared for my ultimate fail...I stared at him and after a moment of silence. "Nice to meet you."<br />
I was so confused I couldn't even play it off!<br />
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Well, we awkwardly entered his office and the meeting began. After a while, I eventually warmed up to him and my usual silly self was out again- in a good way.<br />
Not much improvement needed for next year's application. <br />
-MCAT<br />
-More patient contact<br />
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Not much else was said besides positive remarks. Obviously, I'm an exceptional applicant aside from the one thing that's stopping me from MY DREAM!!! DARN YOU MCAT!!<br />
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Good news is I have plenty of time to prepare.<br />
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Hopefully I'll get in for the fall, but acceptance is definitely within reach for next year's round.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-11497032475953275262011-05-14T12:30:00.001-05:002011-05-14T12:31:52.227-05:00You Make It Easier When Life Gets HardSo as of recent, I have been placed on a waitlist- meaning NOT ACCEPTED (yet). Surprisingly I took it pretty well. Though hopeful, I kind of saw it coming. I imagine it would have been much harder to handle if I didn't have this one main component in my life- the old man! Moms were there to kiss our booboos as a child, unfortunately those kisses don't have the same effect anymore. As we grow older, we learn to depend on ourselves at some low point in our lives when there was no shoulder to lean on. And then, something lovely happens, this special someone will somehow enter your life and make the hard days instantly easier. Tears will be wiped, wounds will be healed, old scars will disappear. The worst of days become bearable and bad news manageable. <br />
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How?<br />
As cliche as this sounds... it's simply the truth...because at the end of the day, you have each other and that's enough. More than enough, the love you share will give you strength to keep fighting, to keep living, to keep going-no matter the circumstances. <br />
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Your lover will become your life adviser, your guidance counselor, your spiritual mentor, your therapist, your partner in crime, at times your punching bag, and ultimately your best friend. <br />
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Life was great while on your own, bu life is grand with your special someone. <br />
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So let the intense studying begin, even if I don't get in this year, IT WON'T BE THE LAST OF ME LSU-NEW ORLEANS!!! <br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Ordered the album today and can't wait to play her in my car. She is just simply amazing... </div>Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-65437406130612800702011-05-07T23:03:00.001-05:002011-05-07T23:03:59.814-05:00Loving Yourself<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/F94biX6QUdU" width="640"></iframe></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://data.whicdn.com/images/9457736/tumblr_lkhgjtfsJ71qaw2vzo1_400_large.jpg?1304544428" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="265" src="http://data.whicdn.com/images/9457736/tumblr_lkhgjtfsJ71qaw2vzo1_400_large.jpg?1304544428" width="400" /></a><a href="http://data.whicdn.com/images/9457736/tumblr_lkhgjtfsJ71qaw2vzo1_400_large.jpg?1304544428" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"> </a></div>I believe...loving yourself isn't about accepting your flaws and all. It isn't about being okay with what you don't like about yourself. Loving yourself...is about putting in the time and effort to change those things you don't like so you can become the best 'you' you can ever even dare or dream to be...<br />
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Loving yourself is working out until your shirt is dripping wet with sweat for that body you've always wanted or the desired health.<br />
Loving yourself is studying into the wee hours of the night for that big A+..for nothing beats a proper education in life. <br />
Loving yourself is going to church, the temple, the synagogue, the mosque, the little quiet quaint place in your heart as often as possible to tend to your spiritual health.<br />
Loving yourself is giving a crap about what you look like. Self-presentation isn't about impressing others, it's about caring enough to give a damn about yourself. You are one sexy ass human-being, take care of that sexy ass and take the extra 5 mins to put on a nice shirt.<br />
Loving yourself is learning everything you've always wanted to learn-piano, guitar, dancing, singing...algebra. Everything and anything.<br />
Loving yourself is dancing in front of the mirror or singing at the top of your lungs..just for the hell of it...because it feels good.<br />
Loving yourself is fixing anything you dislike about yourself- that short temper, lack of patience, lack of ambition, the ego the size of the universe, or the 'take me or leave me' mentality. <br />
Most importantly, loving yourself is about loving others. We are created equal. We are all connected, linked. To love yourself is to love and respect others, to love and respect mother nature, to love and respect this magnificent creation we're all a part of in some way. <br />
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Love yourself today. Stop taking the easy way out by saying, 'this is who I am, this is just who I am, take it or leave it, this is who I am.'<br />
No, take the path less taken and actually be you...the 'you' you've always wanted to be.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-68843308933678667162011-05-06T02:54:00.001-05:002011-05-06T02:56:54.142-05:00I Need You<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/4tpVqaAdjDQ" width="480"></iframe><br />
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<i>"...sweet attention, love and tenderness, when it's real, it's unconditional.."</i><br />
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I couldn't agree more with Miss Keys!! If you can listen to this song and not fully understand her words, you haven't found the right person yet. <br />
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As beautiful and wonderful as love may be, I find it to be one of the most terrifying things in the universe. This thing...this multi-dimensional unexplainable thing we call love- scares me shitless. The lack of control over my emotions, the dependency on my beloved, the near death experience I feel when we spend some time apart. It's all a bit overwhelming to say the least. <br />
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What's so scary about it?<br />
Well, the scary thing is waking up in the morning and thinking...<br />
I can't imagine life without him.<br />
What would I ever do without him?<br />
How can I ever live without him?<br />
I can never be without him. <br />
<i><b>I need him.</b> </i><br />
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And everyday you pray..<br />
You pray that nothing will ever take him away, that nothing will ever give him a change of heart, that nothing shall ever harm him.You pray that he'll always be there, right beside you. And you pray that he will love you silly as you have loved him. <br />
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I'm not a commitment phobe, far from it actually. But I sometimes feel like giving up on our relationship because I am so afraid to get hurt. Because I'm afraid to be so dependent on someone else. So afraid that if he gets taken away from me, I wouldn't know how to let go of the pain.<br />
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That is until he gave me the reassurance I needed: <br />
<i>"... and I need you. That's what makes life so beautiful. People spend their whole lives looking for someone they need, someone they can't live without. We're lucky to have each other..." </i><br />
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So yes..I need him and I'm okay with that.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-79829231579131781712011-05-04T17:39:00.001-05:002011-05-04T17:40:29.245-05:00Time to Buckle DownI have seriously been chillaxing for the last couple of months ever since I graduated(~4 months ago). Originally planned to take the MCAT in March, which totally did not happen. I hate that test!! I've never been the lazy type when it comes to school-related things but I am just not digging that test. <br />
It's disappointing because I know I'm more than capable yet I've made it so hard on myself by continuously putting it off. Life is not that complicated- set a goal, put in the work, achieve the goal. <br />
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Well, this is it. This is going to be my last time taking this damn exam! I have a little over a month to give it my all. I have found that it's best to take it one day at a time and stop focusing on the test date, counting down the days til when it's over. Like Will Smith said..<br />
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</div>So that's the plan, each day I promise to study for a minimum of 4 hours. And each day I will focus solely on the material in front of me and nothing else until the test date arrives. Then I will go in there and beast it because I've done the required work. Wish me luck guys!!<br />
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Just a little bit of sacrifice for a brighter future...I can do this, I can do this, I can do this...<br />
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And my.. it's crazy how much has change within a year. <br />
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We still chit chat now and then. Mostly to catch up or when I want his opinion on something. I would say things are great between us. No hostility, that's for sure. Couldn't ask for a better post-relationship. Appears as though he is doing extremely well for himself. We are healthier-happier human-beings and separating was by far the best decision we ever made. <br />
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Onto myself, lost the ego somewhere along the lines of time. It was a much needed process. If my head was to get any bigger, I seriously think it would have exploded. Like I've said before, I might have delayed my medical school entrance and sacrificed a year of my life. But the trade is well worth it because I became such a better person. If only there was a way to do both! Nonetheless, I have no regrets, just a tiny amount of shame..if that makes any sense at all. Basically, I am happy with who/what I have become and therefore grateful for the path that brought me here. <br />
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The single life post-breakup was wonderful with the support of family and friends! It was a truly unique experience to meet new people and celebrate youth in full throttle. Thank you to all those (especially Hong ^_^) that made it possible. During that special time, I was privileged enough to meet the man that I hope to wake up to for the rest of my life.<br />
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I promise developing a romantic relationship with him was a shocker to myself more than others. Til this day, I still can't believe we're together and happily at it! It appears as if the feelings arose out of thin air... like magic? That's love after all, right? I have yet to meet someone that makes me feel so confident and loved. He makes me feel comfortable in my own skin. He encourages and adores my bizarre behavior. He's supportive of my actions, my dreams, and aspirations. Tells me that I'm beautiful...even with my hair cut short like a teenage boy! Pinches my cheeks. Hugs me tightly. Kisses me abundantly. Makes sure the covers are on me so the stupid mosquito that somehow got into our room won't bite me in the middle of the night. And best of all, there's no one that can calm and comfort me like he does when I'm angry, upset, scared, or nervous. He can make the the worst rainy days feel like a breezy sunny day at the beach! I LOVEEEEEEEE HIM!!<br />
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We were extremely cautious and debating whether we should start anything at first because we both still have much in life to take care of, but when something brings you such happiness and security, why would you allow yourself to past up something so profound and special!?<br />
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So yes, a lot has occur in one year...a lot of spectacular things and I hope there's more to come...like medical school acceptance...*HINT HINT GOD!! That would really make this year THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!! LOL... just kidding, whatever that man above has planned for me, I trust he will play my life out in my best interest. Regardless of what happens tomorrow, let us all enjoy today with joy and love.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-42530501531189509572011-04-30T16:14:00.000-05:002011-04-30T16:14:20.283-05:00New Hair<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFYqKHygUVNzY4JHIq2La7cojEjq14GOA8WL80jwmPM7tSte-0qzVnI3yASCbxOrTlMt5pNXZKTaLaI5xyi8n2f2b8ARZL5d1MsEQa_d16zJg32xpatPMbdx-GLrIGrlHwiZAn6SL9hCc/s1600/Photo+18.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFYqKHygUVNzY4JHIq2La7cojEjq14GOA8WL80jwmPM7tSte-0qzVnI3yASCbxOrTlMt5pNXZKTaLaI5xyi8n2f2b8ARZL5d1MsEQa_d16zJg32xpatPMbdx-GLrIGrlHwiZAn6SL9hCc/s320/Photo+18.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
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Let's talk about life... <br />
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Recently I've picked up a serving job in a small town sushi restaurant. It's been a while since I worked, basically since high school. I always wanted to wait tables because I heard it's a challenging job along with fast cash. In desperate need, I called a good friend to hook me up with the job. Trained for about 1.5 weeks and then I was thrown into the wild. <br />
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What they say about the serving industry is true to a certain extent...but most people make it sound worst than what it really is. Yes, you run into ALL kinds of people. Sometimes horrible, mean, shitty tipping bastards. But the majority of your customers will tip you at least 15% on average, usually more. I run into more friendly people but of course bad experiences are more easily remembered. It's good money at the end of the day, even when you have to put up with 10% of your crap customers.<br />
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Money aside, you learn A LOT. It truly is a humbling experience. Since it's my first time serving, I cannot deny that I make quite a bit of mistakes. Given that I have gotten a lot better, there's still much to learn. For example, today a woman ordered a steak and it wasn't cooked to her liking. I apologized and talked to the chef...yeah no help. In short, I just apologized and did nothing about it. It was such a busy night I also forgot her soup. After she paid and left, what remained was a quarter and a note: NOT AT ALL HAPPY WITH YOUR SERVICE. EVEN AFTER SOMETHING WAS SAID ABOUT THE STEAK. WILL NOT BE COMING BACK.<br />
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I was so upset...not because she left that message...but because I failed at my job. At first I was angry, defense mechanism..totally normal. Then I was saddened, because I couldn't believe I made someone unhappy, that someone was not pleased with my service. Headed home, tears held back.<br />
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After a shower I realized that though it hurts to have someone say those things to me. I would have never learned otherwise. My service was truly horrible and she was doing me a favor by having the balls to tell me. Sure, she could have done it in a nicer way, but that's the reality of life. Never in a million years would I imagine to find myself thinking in such a manner. Taking the blame in full accountability. Accepting all faults and moving on.<br />
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Lesson learned?<br />
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In life, lessons are often learned through mistakes. And those mistakes won't be easy on the heart and soul, but healthy for the improvement of the mind. <br />
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I can't say I love my job, but it's teaching me quite a bit.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-70595100587795732472011-04-27T17:57:00.000-05:002011-04-27T17:57:41.142-05:00Hairy MessJust got done scheduling a hair appointment for Saturday afternoon! This girl here charges $60 and she better be worth every freaking penny! Wish me luck...will post pictures soon. 8) Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-5037419260040890082011-04-24T00:44:00.000-05:002011-04-24T00:44:24.268-05:00I'm so ready for a major alteration in environment. More than ready, desperate. I want to see new furniture...new architecture...heck, new crown molding! I've lived here practically my whole life. It's time. Time to explore the world. Time to be on my own. Time to see new things, experience new things, meet new people.<br />
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I get more irritated and frustrated day by day...same faces, same voices, the same people. I'm grateful for the current stability, but this stagnant part of my life needs to quicken to an end. I'm tired, bored, becoming restless with the same ole same ole. <br />
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LIFE! Where are your new days? New tomorrows? Fresh starts and new beginnings?Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-71090529781809230652011-04-22T19:00:00.002-05:002011-04-23T01:56:35.531-05:00On the mornings I get to wake up to his scent and presence, my God, I just know I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. I feel so blessed and lucky to have him. I never knew such a type of love existed. When I look at him, it's like nothing else in the world matters, just me and him...a warmth in my heart arises, my breath shallows. His face in focus and the rest a blur. When he wraps his arms around me, I feel unimaginably safe and secure. If the world ended then and there, I would surely die a happy peaceful death. <br />
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I know I try to rationalize every aspect of my life and I may come off a bit cold, but there is no logical explanation for this thing between the two of us. I can happily surrender to the unknown...<br />
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It's about not settling.<br />
It's about eliminating immediately the people that would waste your time.<br />
It's about sticking to the standards you've created for yourself. <br />
You see...we all get a little bit lonely sometimes and we tend to cling onto the very next person that makes a move. Building a human connection isn't that hard people, why do we tear up when Mufasa was cruelly murdered by his evil jerk brother? A freaking cartoon lion on the television screen! Because we're humans, we're compassionate, understanding, empathetic, loving creatures...for the most part. If we can hurt for a cartoon lion, we can definitely and easily develop feelings for another human being that may not necessarily be meant for us. Therefore, we must not even allow those people into our lives or else we'll be fighting a battle that's was long over from the get go. Then we'll waste the next couple of years of our lives trying to love and stick to a person we quite don't understand nor get along with.<br />
Years wasted, time wasted, love wasted. <br />
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While I was single last year, did I get lonely at times? Sure. Could I have called up a guy to find temporary comfort? Sure. Did I? Absolutely not.<br />
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People may try to hook you up with others. People may try to convince you that you and so-and-so are so perfect together. You may try to convince yourself. But if that person does not meet your criteria, don't even think about it!<br />
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Follow your own heart, march to the beat of your own drum... this is your life.<br />
Be patient, have faith, and PRAY. LOL. He's out there somewhere, I promise. <br />
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Just remember having a connection with someone is easy, wanting to spend the rest of your life with them is hard. So before you decide to commit or give your heart to someone, could you imagine potentially loving this person to pieces fifty years down the line? If the answer is yes, give it a shot. If no, say bye-bye.<br />
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I really liked this song when I heard it for the first time last summer. Listening to it again while in love with the ong gia gives it a whole new dimension. Oh how beautiful is it that love can change the way we see the world...everything in life seems so much richer.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-91354139375022150832011-04-15T00:46:00.001-05:002011-04-15T00:46:34.422-05:00Nobody's Perfect<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/aSZVYZTze74" title="YouTube video player" width="640"></iframe><br />
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I promise baby I will try my best to speak with consideration. I have the worst habit of running my mouth without thinking and I hate that my words could cause you so much pain. I am so grateful to have an understanding partner like yourself. Thank you for being patient and taking the time to understand my true intentions. Nobody's perfect, but I will try my damnest to treat you with the best of my capabilities.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-14844458730129112472011-04-13T15:47:00.002-05:002011-04-13T15:48:33.174-05:00You Make Me Wanna Say..<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/E0oyglKjbFQ" title="YouTube video player" width="640"></iframe><br />
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<div style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"><i>I do...</i></span></b></div><br />
We are soon approaching the four month mark and I am amazed at what we have established thus far. I am absolutely in love with you in every way. I've never felt this way before. Never been happier in my life. I thank the Lord for you every single day and night. I no longer desire the finer or bigger things in life. I don't care for a big rock or a fancy wedding. You've changed the way I view life so much for the better. Our love is all I need...all I want. <br />
Though we have quite a bit of time before marriage is even in the picture, I can so see us spending our lives together.<br />
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I'm stupid crazy excited for what's in store for us. I love you baby!Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-34587427554047137682011-04-12T18:02:00.002-05:002011-04-12T18:03:54.613-05:00Aurora Borealis<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://data.whicdn.com/images/8757480/tumblr_ljik3vW1yg1qhj0oao1_500_large.jpg?1302647884" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="404" src="http://data.whicdn.com/images/8757480/tumblr_ljik3vW1yg1qhj0oao1_500_large.jpg?1302647884" width="640" /></a></div><span style="font-size: xx-small;">weheartit</span><br />
I haven't got the chance to witness the northern lights just yet, but I imagine I would experience a similar feeling to when the ong gia holds me...simply breathtaking.<br />
Definitely up there on my bucket list.Phamtastichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17899853387617740070noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7561845162155462184.post-6609142923973106142011-04-11T14:09:00.001-05:002011-04-11T14:14:48.096-05:00Forgiveness<b>FAITH SHAKEN, LOST TRUST, TEARS SHED, HEARTACHE</b><br />
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A disastrous combination, a most difficult task at hand. But any love worth having is a love worth fight for. <br />
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It's easy to give up when it gets tough. Easy to build a wall around my heart. Easy to put up a 'NO BS' policy. No... I don't want to fear life and all its obstacles. I don't want to hide or run away. I don't want to have regrets. No looking back and wishing I would have done things differently. <br />
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No matter what our future holds, at least I know I gave it my all. I didn't know you were capable of causing me so much pain, but I will try my best to forgive. I know I may hate myself if I don't give us another chance.<br />
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I don't want to appear normal on the surface but really be broken inside because of my pride or ego. I love you very much and I want nothing more than for us to work out. <br />
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