I'm Yours

I am a complete sucker for really sweet love songs...
Currently listening to The Script and I am loving them!
Anyhow, back to the song...how great is it to find a person that is completely yours?!
I'm quite possessive and territorial by nature, not to say human beings are property haha, but the security that comes with knowing a partner have eyes for only you is definitely a feeling I look for when I'm in a relationship. Sweet sweet song...

Spread the Joy!

Making people smile is one of life's most enjoyable experiences for me...making people laugh is even more rewarding! I just love it when I share a joke/story and this person/persons across from me is smirking/smiling and preferably laughing their asses off. I don't know what it is.. maybe it's the twinkling in their eyes or the fullness in their cheeks or even the funny way people sound when they laugh. Just lightens my heart and brightens my day!
Mother Theresa once said that 'peace begins with a smile.' Isn't that the truth!?
Have you ever been mad at someone? Yet the moment they crack a joke, you are A-Okay again?
Have you ever smiled at a stranger and they immediately smiled in return and asked how your day went?
Did you ever try to cheer up a friend after a long day? The moment they smile.. they just look at you and thank you with a hug?
Strange is it not? Such a simple expression but it receives such positive responses!!
That's why I ask you to smile more often. Smile at strangers, smile at your family members, smile at your friends, smile at your enemies!! Just spread happiness everywhere you go!!! Get high on endorphins!! 8)

It might feel fake at first...but once you see how effective it is and it becomes habitual..trust me you won't stop!!



And for those that haven't seen this hilarious clip!

Bittersweet Goodbyes

I will surely miss you summer, but at the same time..I'm ready for school to start.
This summer seriously flew by! To sum it all up, this summer has been the best and worst summer of my life combined! How is that even possible!?!
Let's just say it was my first time stepping into the real world, I spent the last few years of my life with my ex-hunnyyy bun in isolation. I had very little interaction with other people. After our separation, I was suddenly thrown into this unfamiliar world. Like any curious cat, I started experimenting new things. Well, I must say I've learned a lot! This world can be quite harsh!! If you're not careful, there are people out there that will suck the life out of you and eat you alive! Scary business!
Now, I'm more cautious than I would like... I wish I can trust people and love them endlessly but I'm not ready to turn the other cheek just yet. Maybe in the future, I will learn to truly look past the betrayal, conniving, and selfish tendencies people have, but not at this moment.
Beyond the few ugly people I've bumped into, I've met a great deal of awesome people and gotten closer with good friends! I was fortunate enough to go out most weekends and let's not forget my Miami trip! I've never been out that much during my whole college career! It was a blast and I'm oh so grateful for the people that made it happen. The people that stood right by my side dancing the night away.
School is about to begin so I know all this partying will settle down. I can't wait to meet new people this semester! Especially around football season, tailgating is going to be so much fun!!

Goodbye summer, I hate you and will miss you dearly.
Hello fall...8)

Severe Flooding in Pakistan, Please Help!!

https://secure.unicefusa.org/site/Donation2?df_id=8320&8320.donation=form1

Above is a link to UNICEF's flood disaster relief for the children of Pakistan.

14 million people- 6 million of them children- have been affected by recent floods in Pakistan.

Please take a second to donate! Any amount will help these unfortunate people!

FUCK MY LIFE

I'm really upset right now so please excuse the language, but I need to blow off some fucking steam. And I feel really guilty for polluting the Earth with such negativity...but I promise I'll make it up in the future!!

Fuck my mother fucking fuck life...

Let me dwell in this shit...just let me swim in this fucking misery..
Swim in my shame, disappointment, and failure!

As if my patience and faith haven't been tested enough this summer...one week before school starts..let's just fucking BOMB her!! You know... kick her in the ass so hard to leave her completely speechless and distraught.

Okay...all better... now onto figuring out what the hell am I going to do...

Also, I would like to thank the people that were my crying shoulder. You mean the world to me and I have no idea what I would do without you! I knew of the challenges and risk of heart ache when I chose this career path. I promise I'm not giving up and I'll figure things out somehow...

The Importance of Friendship

Mother Theresa once said that loneliness is the most terrible poverty.
I couldn't agree more. You can be the richest man in the world but with no friends--with no one to care and love you...existence becomes extremely undesirable. Or you can be the poorest man, but with love, you can find the strength to carry on. Humans are naturally social creatures. We need one another. We care for one another. We love one another. There is no greater satisfaction than finding a person to love and be loved.

I am extremely fortunate to find a handful of friends that love me unconditionally, every bit of my existence. Friends that supports every step or path I choose to take in life. Friends that take me as I am without an ounce of resistance. Friends that taught me to be just a loving. You need loving and caring people in your life. It is absolutely essential for your well-being.

Don't ever think you can walk this Earth alone. Don't let your pride interfere with your happiness.


To my friends..
thank you for hearing me whineee
thank you for getting me imodium for my tummy ache
thank you for buying me my favorite chips
thank you for your hugs
thank you for your laughter
thank you for your dances
thank you for your glass of wine
thank you for my cup of chai tea latte
thank you for my frozen yogurt
thank you for dinner
thank you for your place to stay
thank you for asking if I'm okay
thank you for accessorizing me
thank you for pinching my cheeks and telling me how cute I am..lol
thank you for caring
thank you for loving
the list goes on and on
I just want to say thank you for everything
I freaking love you guys!!
Cam on!! 8)

Off My Chest

Typically, I do not snoop into people's business because I respect their privacy. However, there comes a time when you become a bit curious and it's just time to face reality. Plus, I guess if the information is provided by that person openly on the Internet, it really isn't snooping? Or I'm just telling myself that to feel better...

Well, life has been improving like I mentioned in the past several posts. It's all fine and dandy until you run into that one person that just gets under your skin. Then you find yourself in bed feeling like you don't know what because all you can do is stare at the ceiling. Pathetic shit, isn't it? You know you're holding something back but you're not quite sure what. That's when you telephone a bff, and before you can even try to make sense of reality, tears are flowing down your cheeks because he/she just told you what you've been denying to yourself all along.

Whether it's...

"Girl...home boy is cheating."

"Girl...he is so over you."

"Girl...he's got a new girl."

Or in my case "Girl...you fell in love."

Sigh...falling in love. Three tragic words that holds the potential to completely transform your world: for better or worse. I tried so hard to deny the slightest possibility that I might have loved this guy. I tried to reason every angle. The timing was too short. He did nothing to deserve it. Maybe, it was lust. My God, every mere attempt was a failure. I just knew somewhere he's gone where most have never been. I couldn't explained why I cared excessively. I couldn't explain why I forgave easily. I couldn't explain why I couldn't just drop it and go on with my life. I've been in longer relationships where I left without an ounce of regret. With him, every time I left, a part of me wished it would have turned out different. Fortunately, another part of me knew I deserved better. It's sad that I couldn't be the girl I wanted to be for him. It's sad that the feelings were never returned. The good thing about falling in love is that you can fall out as well. In due time, I'm sure I'll find my way around it. Just have to get up from my fall and dust myself off.

Seeing him with another person, I couldn't be happier for him. Everyone deserves a happy home. Even if I couldn't be that for him, I'm glad he found someone that can. Now he has someone to respect and cherish. Someone to share his day with and make him happy. Now there are two people walking around smiling ear to ear because of one another and it's positive energy that the world needs.

Like old man Joe said from the movie Alfie- "There are two things I've learned in life: find someone to love and live everyday as if it were your last."

Live life like that and trust me... you'll feel complete...8)

A Life Full of Coincidences

As a person that believes in fate and destiny, I have to be extra careful to not look into many coincidences that occur in my life. I guess that's how my over analytical tendencies developed. From running into someone unexpectedly in the most random places or coinciding facebook statuses, these awkward moments happen to me all the time. I mean everything happens for a reason right? Wrong! Hence, I have to digest, investigate, and analyze to make sure it was just that-a coincidence.

Due to my extremely hopeful heart, I am always prepared to give anything in life another shot. I am capable of seeing opportunity in everything. It's complete optimism, with a dash of stupidity. It's sad to say the least...someone can burn me into a million pieces but offer me a sincere apology with a hug and I'm all smiles again. What can I say? Everyone deserves a second chance or ten.

Anyhow, with a hopelessly forgiving heart, I will have multiple excitement heart attacks a day if I believed every coincidence was a 'sign' of some sort. People live and learn. I've found my way of coping with it. I try not to assume, I'll find a logical explanation for anything 'twilight zone-ish' that happens to me. Over the years, my desire for an explanation progressed. I never thought of myself as an over analytical person but if multiple people tell you you are..then you probably are! I guess this is me trying to explain why I over analyze.

I am a hopeful person. If I don't use reason and logic, if I don't try to find alternative answers than what my heart wants to believe, my life would be filled with disappointments.

This life full of coincidences is just that...coincidences and nothing more.

What Goes Around...Comes Around

Everyone probably knows of someone that has that 'player' mentality. Those people usually have been hurt in the past and vowed to never love again or treat others like crap. If you ever run into those 'players' or know a friend that's in that situation, encourage them to not continue the vicious cycles of broken hearts breaking hearts. What goes around comes around. Trust me, people like that will never attract nor deserve true love if they continue to live in that manner.

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I am in the best condition to write when I'm in one of two states of mind: really depressed or really happy. There is a bittersweet feeling to the fact life is starting to stabilize and I'm finding myself scavenging for inspiration to write.

To answer my own question from the last post, I believe it's better to keep it friendly. Our friendship goes way back and I'm not willing to lose it just for comfort and good company. However, I am grateful to have someone in my life that can make me feel important. I love how he comes to me when in need of a positive outlook on his life situations. Let's me know I'm doing my job as a friend.

I'm really beginning to enjoy my single life. When you're in a relationship, you have to act a certain way.. so restrained!! I am loving this sense of freedom! I noticed that guys are less likely to talk to you when you're in a relationship also. I guess it's male code, taken property? I don't know, but I'm meeting new people and I'm so excited!! School starts in two weeks, it's going to be my last semester and I am going to make the best of it! Yay!! 8)