Tuesday, May 24, 2011

"I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it." 
                                                                                                 Audrey Hepburn

Caught Off Guard

Man my reflexes are slow...

Today I had a meeting with Dr. Eubanks (one of the head guys for the admission committee at LSUHSC). For some reason I thought I met him before so I was expecting a familiar face, but no.. out walks this short sweet looking man calling my name and I didn't know what to say.

"Nice to see you again Huong."
Be prepared for my ultimate fail...I stared at him and after a moment of silence. "Nice to meet you."
I was so confused I couldn't even play it off!

Well, we awkwardly entered his office and the meeting began. After a while, I eventually warmed up to him and my usual silly self was out again- in a good way.
Not much improvement needed for next year's application.
-More patient contact

Not much else was said besides positive remarks. Obviously, I'm an exceptional applicant aside from the one thing that's stopping me from MY DREAM!!! DARN YOU MCAT!!

Good news is I have plenty of time to prepare.

Hopefully I'll get in for the fall, but acceptance is definitely within reach for next year's round.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

You Make It Easier When Life Gets Hard

So as of recent, I have been placed on a waitlist- meaning NOT ACCEPTED (yet). Surprisingly I took it pretty well. Though hopeful, I kind of saw it coming. I imagine it would have been much harder to handle if I didn't have this one main component in my life- the old man! Moms were there to kiss our booboos as a child, unfortunately those kisses don't have the same effect anymore. As we grow older, we learn to depend on ourselves at some low point in our lives when there was no shoulder to lean on. And then, something lovely happens, this special someone will somehow enter your life and make the hard days instantly easier. Tears will be wiped, wounds will be healed, old scars will disappear. The worst of days become bearable and bad news manageable.

As cliche as this sounds... it's simply the truth...because at the end of the day, you have each other and that's enough. More than enough, the love you share will give you strength to keep fighting, to keep living, to keep going-no matter the circumstances.

Your lover will become your life adviser, your guidance counselor, your spiritual mentor, your therapist, your partner in crime, at times your punching bag, and ultimately your best friend.

Life was great while on your own, bu life is grand with your special someone.

 He totally agrees... lol... 8)

So let the intense studying begin, even if I don't get in this year, IT WON'T BE THE LAST OF ME LSU-NEW ORLEANS!!!


Ordered the album today and can't wait to play her in my car. She is just simply amazing...

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Loving Yourself

For an enhanced reading experience, please play the song while reading. LOL 

I believe...loving yourself isn't about accepting your flaws and all. It isn't about being okay with what you don't like about yourself. Loving yourself...is about putting in the time and effort to change those things you don't like so you can become the best 'you' you can ever even dare or dream to be...

Loving yourself is working out until your shirt is dripping wet with sweat for that body you've always wanted or the desired health.
Loving yourself is studying into the wee hours of the night for that big A+..for nothing beats a proper education in life.
Loving yourself is going to church, the temple, the synagogue, the mosque, the little quiet quaint place in your heart as often as possible to tend to your spiritual health.
Loving yourself is giving a crap about what you look like. Self-presentation isn't about impressing others, it's about caring enough to give a damn about yourself. You are one sexy ass human-being, take care of that sexy ass and take the extra 5 mins to put on a nice shirt.
Loving yourself is learning everything you've always wanted to learn-piano, guitar, dancing, singing...algebra. Everything and anything.
Loving yourself is dancing in front of the mirror or singing at the top of your lungs..just for the hell of it...because it feels good.
Loving yourself is fixing anything you dislike about yourself- that short temper, lack of patience, lack of ambition, the ego the size of the universe, or the 'take me or leave me' mentality.
Most importantly, loving yourself is about loving others. We are created equal. We are all connected, linked. To love yourself is to love and respect others, to love and respect mother nature, to love and respect this magnificent creation we're all a part of in some way.

Love yourself today. Stop taking the easy way out by saying, 'this is who I am, this is just who I am, take it or leave it, this is who I am.'
No, take the path less taken and actually be you...the 'you' you've always wanted to be.

Friday, May 6, 2011

I Need You

"...sweet attention, love and tenderness, when it's real, it's unconditional.."

I couldn't agree more with Miss Keys!! If you can listen to this song and not fully understand her words, you haven't found the right person yet.

As beautiful and wonderful as love may be, I find it to be one of the most terrifying things in the universe. This thing...this multi-dimensional unexplainable thing we call love- scares me shitless. The lack of control over my emotions, the dependency on my beloved, the near death experience I feel when we spend some time apart. It's all a bit overwhelming to say the least.

What's so scary about it?
Well, the scary thing is waking up in the morning and thinking...
I can't imagine life without him.
What would I ever do without him?
How can I ever live without him?
I can never be without him.
I need him.

And everyday you pray..
You pray that nothing will ever take him away, that nothing will ever give him a change of heart, that nothing shall ever harm him.You pray that he'll always be there, right beside you. And you pray that he will love you silly as you have loved him.

I'm not a commitment phobe, far from it actually. But I sometimes feel like giving up on our relationship because I am so afraid to get hurt. Because I'm afraid to be so dependent on someone else. So afraid that if he gets taken away from me, I wouldn't know how to let go of the pain.

That is until he gave me the reassurance I needed:
"... and I need you. That's what makes life so beautiful. People spend their whole lives looking for someone they need, someone they can't live without. We're lucky to have each other..."

So yes..I need him and I'm okay with that.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Time to Buckle Down

I  have seriously been chillaxing for the last couple of months ever since I graduated(~4 months ago). Originally planned to take the MCAT in March, which totally did not happen. I hate that test!! I've never been the lazy type when it comes to school-related things but I am just not digging that test.
It's disappointing because I know I'm more than capable yet I've made it so hard on myself by continuously putting it off. Life is not that complicated- set a goal, put in the work, achieve the goal.

Well, this is it. This is going to be my last time taking this damn exam! I have a little over a month to give it my all. I have found that it's best to take it one day at a time and stop focusing on the test date, counting down the days til when it's over. Like Will Smith said..

"You don’t set out to build a wall, you don’t say I am going to build the biggest baddest wall that has ever been built, you don’t start there, you say I am going to lay this brick as perfectly as a brick can be laid and you do that ever single day until you have a wall."

So that's the plan, each day I promise to study for a minimum of 4 hours. And each day I will focus solely on the material in front of me and nothing else until the test date arrives. Then I will go in there and beast it because I've done the required work. Wish me luck guys!!

Just a little bit of sacrifice for a brighter future...I can do this, I can do this, I can do this...

Monday, May 2, 2011

A Year in Review

WOW..woke up this morning and realized that me and the ex broke up around this time last year. That was ridiculously quick!

And my.. it's crazy how much has change within a year.

We still chit chat now and then. Mostly to catch up or when I want his opinion on something. I would say things are great between us. No hostility, that's for sure. Couldn't ask for a better post-relationship. Appears as though he is doing extremely well for himself. We are healthier-happier human-beings and separating was by far the best decision we ever made.

Onto myself, lost the ego somewhere along the lines of time. It was a much needed process. If my head was to get any bigger, I seriously think it would have exploded. Like I've said before, I might have delayed my medical school entrance and sacrificed a year of my life. But the trade is well worth it because I became such a better person. If only there was a way to do both! Nonetheless, I have no regrets, just a tiny amount of shame..if that makes any sense at all. Basically, I am happy with who/what I have become and therefore grateful for the path that brought me here.

The single life post-breakup was wonderful with the support of family and friends! It was a truly unique experience to meet new people and celebrate youth in full throttle. Thank you to all those (especially Hong ^_^) that made it possible. During that special time, I was privileged enough to meet the man that I hope to wake up to for the rest of my life.

I promise developing a romantic relationship with him was a shocker to myself more than others. Til this day, I still can't believe we're together and happily at it! It appears as if the feelings arose out of thin air... like magic? That's love after all, right? I have yet to meet someone that makes me feel so confident and loved. He makes me feel comfortable in my own skin. He encourages and adores my bizarre behavior. He's supportive of my actions, my dreams, and aspirations. Tells me that I'm beautiful...even with my hair cut short like a teenage boy! Pinches my cheeks. Hugs me tightly. Kisses me abundantly. Makes sure the covers are on me so the stupid mosquito that somehow got into our room won't bite me in the middle of the night. And best of all, there's no one that can calm and comfort me like he does when I'm angry, upset, scared, or nervous. He can make the the worst rainy days feel like a breezy sunny day at the beach! I LOVEEEEEEEE HIM!!

We were extremely cautious and debating whether we should start anything at first because we both still have much in life to take care of, but when something brings you such happiness and security, why would you allow yourself to past up something so profound and special!?

So yes, a lot has occur in one year...a lot of spectacular things and I hope there's more to come...like medical school acceptance...*HINT HINT GOD!! That would really make this year THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!! LOL... just kidding, whatever that man above has planned for me, I trust he will play my life out in my best interest. Regardless of what happens tomorrow, let us all enjoy today with joy and love.