Back to the Now

Everything is going to be okay.
Everything is going to plan.

I don't know if men experience anything similar but I find it obnoxiously unnecessary for women to have mood fluctuations throughout the month. On top of bloating and feeling fat, I have to deal with emotional instability. What a freaking life nuisance!!

Hidden Treasures

Look what I found hidden in my wallet just the other day... 8)
I adore the sweet things people do for one another...
Whoever catches his heart will be one lucky girl!!

First Love

"I'll let you fly because I know in my heart,babe, our love will never die..." 

My mother always told me... you will never forget your first love. It seems silly because we all know eventually we'll start dating other people and one day we'll even get married to the love of our life. Yet deep down, we just know our first true love will never be forgotten. It will be stored in a special place in our heart and taken out when we want to reminisce on our sweet innocent years..8)
The love notes, the dried flowers, the cards, the homemade gifts.. though I've physicaly trashed them somewhere along the way...
I  still remember all the little sweet innocent things we did for one another. Whether it's sharing an egg sandwich underneath the stars... or him saying hello outside my window at night fearing that my mother will wake. Those memories, they just will never fade.

We ridiculously love one another, but we're both going through times of change and growth. This separation is necessary for our own good. When you truly love someone, you will gladly let go and let them fly.

I fully support his journey and all he wishes to accomplish in life. I know that no matter what happens, we'll have each others' backs. The love we share is beyond what I can expect from my first love...8)

Cheers to us! May the Lord watch over us as we go on our journey to discover what the world has to offer us...

True Happiness

“We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.”  -Frederick Keonig

I'm going quote happy...


I believe a lot of people feel temporary happiness when they gain something they didn't have before, whether it's an article of clothing, an A on an exam, a gift, etc. 
Those little things are great to boost our everyday moods...however...
True happiness lies in the ability to appreciate what you already have. Not because expectations are met, not because you FINALLY got something you want. Because you're simply satisfied with life, simply grateful for what already is...that's true happiness...according to moi! 8) 

Will's Wisdom

FFUs

"Fashion is only the attempt to realize art in living forms and social intercourse."  -Francis Bacon, Sr.

We'll All Float On

Ben Lee's cover for Modest Mouse's Float On

I love this cover!! Heard it on Pandora on the other day and fell in loveeee! Oh, I love Pandora too!! Hehehe...

Moving on to my most recent battle or struggle. According to the words of ex-hunny bun, I've been "freaking out about not freaking out." Confusing...no?!
Basically, this past summer I've been able to alter the way I view anger or stress. I saw how unnecessary and polluting it was to the universe.
I am much more tranquil these days and you would think that's great news but I'm so chilled now my grades are falling!!!
I used to freak the fuck out when exam time rolls around. The fear pushed me to study. I'm so relaxed now..I'm not motivated to do shit.
My latest battle... finding balance within myself.
I need to start freaking out again!!

Appreciation

If I had offer words of wisdom, it would be to "be kind and be grateful..."
Life is much easier and pleasant when we are caring and kind to others. The people around us will feel important/loved and the smiles on their faces will warm our little hearts as well. Be kind, it's the right thing to do...we all know it. We just need to take the initiative. Be kind. Don't let your pride or ego take over. Don't hurt others to protect yourself. Be kind.
And no matter how hard life gets, every breath you take should not be taken for granted. Be satisfied and grateful for what you have. Stop searching, stop missing, stop yearning...simply appreciate all that you have.

The soft cool wind that blew my hair today, the sun rays that beamed upon me, the oxygen I inhaled...I shared it all with others. I did not claim it as my own. I simply appreciated the world around me. I did not ask for the wind or sun, I did not have to ask for mother's love. I did not have to ask for brother's love. It was all given to me and they never asked for anything in return. The least I can do is appreciate.

Also, when you run into something grand and beautiful in life, you may desire to possess it. But it's better left just appreciated...because when one gains, another will lose. Therefore, do not wish to keep the beauty to yourself, do not wish to claim it your own, do not selfishly store it away. Instead, appreciate the mere existence of it and share it with the world...

Similarly, when you meet someone absolutely breath-taking and amazing, do not wish to keep them to yourself. They have so much to offer the world, let them shine continuously. Just appreciate having met them. Value them, cherish them, admire them. Be not jealous when others see what you see. For anything beautiful in life should be shared...8)

Back to December

If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't...
But this is me swallowing my pride 
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night...
And I go back to December all the time...


When everything is done and gone, all that's left are memories. So cherish them while your brain cells can still hold on... 8)

I can't believe it's October already! What the heck!?!?! As we get closer to December, I can't help but think to myself if we would have stayed together for a couple more months, we would have made six years. But God has his ways of closing and opening doors. I am in a wonderful place with a better understanding of myself. More on this later...

 

Wedding Bells

I was in a wedding this past weekend and it was one of the best weddings I've ever been too. The bride and groom paid so much close attention to detail. Especially the bride, amongst the people and the hustle/bustle of a big wedding with close to 400 guests, she still somehow managed to remember I was missing a hairpiece... 8)
I was just a child when I met the groom. He basically watch me grow up. It was so nice to be a part of his big special day. I can tell they will live a happily ever after...
For their first dance, they danced to my favorite song ever. From their long gaze into each others eyes, the way they wrap their arms around another, their genuine heart felt smiles..I knew they were for life.
I love you guys!! Chuc mung Anh Nam and Chi Yen!!

Can't Help Falling in Love with You



Wise men say only fools rush in...but I can't help falling in love with you...

My heart feels like a circus..it's too much to take in
It's hard to lose love but you were my best friend

Her voice is GORGEOUS!!!!!

The Earth Provides..

is it too much to ask that we take care of her in return?

I think we all forget at times to recognize and appreciate the wonderful place we call home...Earth. For it's nurturing tendencies, I'll refer to Earth as female. Most certainly, she tends to our every need, our survival, our very existence. She is placed at a perfect distant from the Sun that makes life possible for us. She is the soil from which our food grows. She is the air in which we breathe. She is the wood infrastructure that supports our home.

Yet what have we as modern 21st century 'welcome to the good life' seekers given her? We have polluted her air with our pretty cars. We have extensively plowed her soil and stripped her of her nutrients. We have cleared her forests. We create plastic islands in the ocean.

She gives us so much...is this how a species that consider themselves the most intelligent of all species  repay her?

Today, I witnessed a beautiful human being. As I study by a window in a nearby coffee shop, I saw a lady bending over, stooping low, and picking up the trash that everyone else seems to ignore. It was such a beautiful sight. She didn't change the world by shouting at people. She didn't change the world by passing our brochures. She didn't change the world by pronouncing herself as an activist or wearing a 'go green' tshirt. She changed the world by giving back. She changed the world with her own actions. She changed the world by 'doing it herself.' I found it so admirable I shyly tapped her on the shoulder and thanked her for her efforts.

You can't stop the forest clearing. You can't stop the mass production of agriculture. You can't stop the big corporations from spewing pollutants. That's silly. Who are you to think you can? You can't.
But you can pick up after yourself. You can pick up the trash in your neighborhoods, your schools, your local environment. You can appreciate Mother Earth. You can love her...just as she has cared and loved you.. 8)